Your Will Makes A Way
I was so excited for quarantine. All the plans I laid out were about to get done! And then…
I had to get up in the morning. Epic fail!
Well, maybe ‘epic’, is being a bit overdramatic. My problem is, if I don’t get up in the morning, my time with God is not full of quality at that point. I don’t even have kids and a husband. Just the other people around me! I prefer to start my day with peace, quiet, coffee and prayer. What follows after that depends on whether I need time to pray more, journaling, a bible study or just meditating on one scripture that’s really speaking to me at the moment. But when I don’t have that ‘me’ time in the morning, no matter it’s format, I’m not at my best for me or others around me. I work closely with one of my friends, so once the day begins it becomes all about business for the rest of the day.
I never used to be a morning person. When I got to college, before motivational speakers were chiming in about how important the morning is, I discovered I preferred to get up, get things done, and have the rest of my day to myself. I’m not a very selfish person, but when it comes to my personal time, I can be. So, despite not really caring to get up, once I am up, I am good to go.
So here it was, the time inside I had dreamed of. And it seemed it was just slipping away. I wasn’t being as productive as I told myself I would be. There’s just something about my day that seems very off when I don’t at least give proper time to pray and/or journal. It’s become a vital part of my morning routine. So, when I run it so close to everything else that I’m doing, I just end up being rushed. Of course, every day is not the same, but it’s different when I can expect the different things I need to do in the morning. When it comes down to it being because of my own discipline, that’s a whole other story. I didn’t like that about me at all!
So, what did I do?
I had to make up my mind and just do it! I put the extra sleep to the side, and I decided that the time I needed to get up and do what I needed for my day, was more important than an hour or 2 of sleep. Easier said than done, but I’m doing it.
Whatever that is for you, I encourage you to do it. All of us are not in the same season. So maybe this is a time for you to rest, take it easy and not think of much. Do that! Whatever is going to have you at your best, do it. Be led by the Holy Spirit as much as possible. I just know for me I was excited and then cutting myself short for things that I know needed to get done. And I’m glad I did do it because it was something that I needed to get me to be my best for the rest of the day.
If you know that there is something that needs to get done, and you are just being lazy about it, think about the difference it can make for your day. Maybe you’re an essential worker and you need that 30 minutes in the car before you go inside to be bombarded with more people. Don’t worry about appearing selfish. Some things are worth the sacrifice. If it’s going to make you better and better with those around you, don’t hesitate, just do it.
XOXO,