Getting in Tune with You

The beginning of every healing journey is a tough one. Learning to acknowledge and accept the emotions you’ve buried can be a strong challenge in the beginning. Overlooking how you’ve felt for so long has resulted in a monotone  “I don’t know”, or repetitive standard response: “I’m fine”.  If that’s you, you aren’t fine at all. You’re just now becoming aware of the hurt you excused yourself from feeling for so long. You’ve lived on the surface for so long that you have no idea that you’ve become a master of vague information. You give just enough to appease the masses, but it’s alarming to the ones paying close attention.

You completely detached from your emotions in order to survive.

Coping mechanisms can have their place. But when you’ve been delivered from an atmosphere that’s no good for you to one where you have space to be it’s time to let your survival tactics go. It takes intentionality on your part to get there. Uncover the parts of you that you have kept hidden for so long. Yes, it will be a process but it will be one that shows you the other side of life that is worth living. You may even start to experience old emotions as if they’re new. It’s not pretty but when you stop running and finally relive those moments in real time, you realize that it too will pass. 

So much of our journey is learning to face the walls that have allowed us to shrink beneath who we truly are. God is a gracious God who will gift you with friends and spaces to be covered in your season of recovery.

Recognizing what you have experienced is a powerful tool. Not to keep you there, or to wallow in the past, or keep your eye fixed on what happened, but instead to reveal who you really are to your present. You are a total composition of what you’ve experienced firsthand. When you acknowledge the bad along with the good, you make room to appreciate all of what makes you unique. We will not be afraid of what we’ve gone through. It’s not always easy, but we are here because of it. 

Being in tune with yourself, your emotions and your process doesn’t make you weak or broken. It sets you free to accept yourself and live a life that your coping mechanisms no longer have a place to settle.