I Did It For Myself
I did something for myself.
It’s really not a big deal, but for me, it’s a good step in the right direction.
It’s hard for me to rationalize spending on frivolous things. I’m blessed and I live well, but I don’t have money to just throw away. I like simple things, nice things, but simple none the less. As a simple person, certain things like fashion, high brands, and all the latest trends don’t interest me the way it does others. But, I actually wanted to do something for myself for a change. Not because others liked it, or because I thought they’d think it was nice. But I did it for me!
I bought a ring. Not a little cheap one like I normally would that probably would turn colors sooner than later, but a nice one. Not expensive, but more than I would just go out and do for me for no real reason. It all started a year ago. I’ve actually been on a single journey for a few years and last year out of nowhere I wanted a ring that symbolized my journey in purity. Crazy, I know! One side of me felt like why, your husband should be walking through your life at any moment now girl! And the other part of me was so excited to actually get something for the journey and growth I’ve been on. For me, it wasn’t just about my change in how I approached relationships, but also me embracing who I am as a daughter of God and having that beautiful reminder. So, naturally, I didn’t just want anything. I found some that didn’t work out and when I landed on this ring, I just knew that was it. But at the same time, I felt like, “nah”, I have other things I “need”. So, I put the idea to the side.
A year later and I was still looking it up on the website. I really had to tell myself, “Girl, you keep looking at it and been thinking about it all this time, just get it already!”
So, I did. That simple. That fast.
But, I wonder, how many of us really hold ourselves back from things we desire? We will go out of our way for others but feel like we’re okay if we don’t have all that we truly desire. I’m not saying go crazy and live it up outside your means. But, if you can, and you’d be willing to make the sacrifice for someone else, go ahead and do something for you for a change.
It’s not going to kill you. I promise. In fact, it will stretch you to really expect more for yourself. If you don’t really treat yourself the way you desire, how can anyone else?
Some of you have no problem spending on yourself, but maybe, there is another area of life you don’t expect the best for you. Why?
It’s time we face this reality. It’s time to move that insecurity out the way and claim what is yours. Move boldly in what you expect. You are a daughter of God after all. Trust me, YOU deserve it!