A Filling Solutioin
These past few months of quarantine have been special. I have no recollection of fighting fear and anxiety the way I have these past few months.
At the top of my concerns is uncertainty in what is to come of my life. I feel utterly unsure. Questions and imagined situations of despair have overwhelmed my mind.
I laid in my bed tossing these thoughts as I honestly spoke to God in prayer. A quick pause and I heard a soft answer: A thought not my own.
“But did you fill it with My Word?”
A blank stare came across my face in the pitch-black room. “Erm, no Heavenly Father. I did not fill my fears with Your Word.” And then I added, “You know that.”
I don’t believe I’m the only one that does this. His word is right there, yet we truck through our issues like we can make it anyhow. We pray. We get prayer groups. We may journal our innermost thoughts. But sometimes we forget to apply His word directly. There’s no real pressure applied to our problems in this technique.
I look toward my desk. I wrote down Proverbs 3:5 on a bright pink post-it just to never review it on my board.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding”
Proverbs 3:5 NIV
God did not give us His Word as nice coffee table decorations, or as a color book for our various, cute highlighters. He gave it to be used as our weapon. A double-edged sword. Cutting our enemies down and sharpening us to an elevated level. His precious Word. Sometimes our last chosen resource is a very effective one. It is a reminder of what He emphatically stated. We will not find maybe, should, would or even could. No. His Word is filled with He has, He is, and He will. Period.
I got up out my bed, looked at the verse glaring at me through pink paper. I said it out loud 5 times. Then I traded in the ‘your heart’ with ‘my heart’, and ‘your own understanding’ with ‘my own understanding’. This was extremely personal now and I wasn’t going to be pushed around any longer. It’s one thing to feel a certain way, but feelings don’t carry the weight they can when we know the truth.
Maybe for you it’s provision, safety, overthinking, emotionally responsive, your kids, health that’s already been compromised before all this. Whatever it is, we have a solution.
His truth will always be greater than what we fear. So even though the anxiety nudges and knocks, let’s find comfort in His Words as if it were hugging us tightly. His Word is where all our answers are firmly established.
Keep your crown up,