Speaking to Fear

I remember one time it seemed a lot was on my mind. My spiritual sister decided to say a prayer with me. I closed my eyes and was listening in and out as she prayed.

She mentioned peace, against a spirit of timidity and some word I was unfamiliar with. This out of all things stood out to me, yet I really didn't know what it meant. I looked it up. It took me by surprise. It was spirit that would consume the mind negative thoughts of death, loved ones dying, murder and other negative garbage.

Okay God! I got you. This was straight from you because there was no way she knew that. I never told her things like that. I did my best to speak positive life. People would probably think I was crazy if they knew the things that flashed across my mind randomly. I believe I somehow took it on as a defense mechanism growing up. In a way of preparing myself mentally for the worst and still hoping for the best. So I wouldn't be in complete utter shock of something crazy occurring. But now it was affecting my walk with God, clogging my mind.

I am reminded of this recently because of what it seems the world is going through. Natural disasters, unjust murders, senseless violence on masses of people. In a time that can seem scary and unsure I want you to know there is HOPE.

Once I realized the type of thoughts attacking me I could stop the fear before it could really grow and rise up. Sometimes as humans we have a survival mode that clicks on. We see the craziness in Vegas happen and start thinking twice about going to big malls or concerts. We allow our change our lives to be based off those circumstances instead of how God leads us.

Don't live your life in fear. Don't let it stop you. Don't let thoughts run wild. Don't let what unfortunately happened to someone else put that burden on you. You have to live your life.

I would read Psalm 91 every night...EVERY night before I went to bed. If I imagined someone breaking through my door or shooting bullets through my walls I’d call it a LIE! Where did that even come from? Who thinks like this? Then I’d break out my Bible or Bible App again and read Psalm 91 sometimes with Psalm 23 and pray until my spirit was calm.

You may have to stop the news feed that comes to your phone. It’s so consumed with the negative it’s no wonder we can be filled with constant concern. Put your phone down and look around at the positive. Live in the moment. That’s what I had to do. And it has definitely made a difference.

I refuse to let anxiety stifle me about something that has .001% chance of happening the way I imagine it. Plus, I can’t just say I trust God. I have to choose to trust Him and follow it with my actions.

Have fun. Be free. Live life the God-free way. There is still hope in the world and God needs you to show it!
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